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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:30

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She wouldn,t have been !

They are buried together, in the same grave..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

What did your sister do to you that you can never forget?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Can a cop pull you over walking home asking why you are out so late?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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I waited trembling.

We were not on the streets..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My family never makes their pension either.

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Would this be the day?

Im still living with it.

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

It is common sense that Joe Biden is ruining America and is unfit to be president, but why are the liberals still supporting him when Trump is obviously a much better fit for office?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

So, i spoilt her more .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was seconnd youngest,

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He knew the spot.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She married twice! .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was very sick at this time too.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I have no regrets .

One cannot live in the past .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

This is soul school!.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Especially a lifetime of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

All the time i was locked up.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I write beautiful poetry .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So whats the point in blame.

She found it foreign!.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I said to her

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Put me off passion for life!!

I will be 64.

But, we were locked up after school.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Ive learnt so much.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I know ,a lot about trauma.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

It was going to be , some day.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

We all went to grammer schools

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I never cut or harmed myself..

When she asked me how she looked .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My life is so biszare .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I don,t even have a pension.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And i lived it daily.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She was in good health!

Was to survive, this bastard.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Who then, do I blame.?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I think the readers, may guess!

Comes on , in middle age.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was 9 years of age.

But it wasn’t much.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was scared of men, in general

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

What did i know ?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She loved him until the end.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

This is how, and why children get BPD.